Archive | 2005

Open Letter to Evidence Of Harm List Members

5 Jun

Let’s start off with a basic assumption.

You love your kids. I love mine.

A lot of you don’t understand where Kathleen Seidel is coming from, whereas I sometimes can’t understand where you’re coming from. I read posts on the EoH list that say you want to test Kathleen’s kids and I wonder at how you could possibly be so insensitive. I’m sure you often wonder how I, or Kathleen or anyone else on our side of the debate can be so insensitive. I visit other websites where you have all descended en masse and wonder at your behaviour – anyone who disagrees with you is attacked in highly personal ways. And to what end? How does that advance your position?

I’ve received hate mail from some of you which is both highly personal and highly inaccurate. Some of you have stooped so low as to personally attack my daughter, a five year old autistic girl, in words so personal I can’t bear to repeat them. According to some of you, I flit around various websites under a variety of assumed names for reasons that are left unexplained and on evidence that to anyone who makes their living on the web, is naive and technically incompetent. I have also heard descriptions of some of the people I think of as cohorts that verge on the libelous. I really, truly wonder what exactly you get out of this behaviour?

Now, I can’t speak for Kathleen or anyone else but for myself I think you really need to take a long hard look at your behaviour as a group. As individuals I’m sure most of you are decent people – indeed, I have received approaching 20 emails from various members of the EoH lists that apologise for the way I, or Kathleen, or Camille, or anyone else has been portrayed. Some of these people say they can see my/our position and respect me/us for it. However, it seems that the mob still holds sway on EoH itself.

I don’t believe that autism is mercury poisoning. Generation Rescue and the few people who stick to that error both in the book and on the EoH list are simply wrong. This is my main gripe with the book and with a lot of you.

I believe that some of your kids have been mercury poisoned – you say you have tests that prove it and I have no particular reason to disbelieve what you say – and that is a bad thing. I also think that the CDC in your country should release their data. Further I think there needs to be an internationally funded, independent body set up to look at rates of prevalence across the entire world. It would take time but it is badly needed in my opinion. I don’t agree with the opinion that autism is an epidemic and I object strenuously to my daughter and people like her, who have definitely not been metal poisoned being characterised in this way.

I think (sadly) that the majority of your kids who are metal poisoned have been misdiagnosed as autistic. I think that if there is an increase in prevalence then this will be one of the reasons. I also think that there will come a time when you, as a group, will have to face the fact that your kids are either not autistic and are metal poisoned, or autistic and therefore almost certainly won’t react well to treatments such as Chelation. I don’t know any of you and you don’t know me but what I do know is that autistic kids need early intervention and that the best type of intervention you can give them is love, acceptance and encouragement. Your autistic kids won’t always be kids. They will grow into teenagers and then adults. And they will still be autistic. Do you really want them to grow up feeling guilty and ashamed of who they are? Look at the examples of Temple Grandin and Donna Williams who were both diagnosed as low functioning autistics. See what they are now. Strong, independent, forthright people. Read some of the library articles at autistics.org. A lot of the contributors there were also diagnosed as low functioning as kids. But kids grow up and develop. Can you say you were intellectually at your best as a 3 year old? Did you communicate as well as a 20 year old?

I don’t want to go on being angry with a group of people I don’t really know but neither do I want my daughter to grow up characterised only by negative assumptions about who she is and how she got that way. Please, buy as many copies of Evidence of Harm as you like, but don’t let one book that only tells one side of the story distract you from the truth that autism is not solely mercury poisoning. Don’t let your zeal to find personal answers obstruct autistics who were never metal poisoned from the legitimacy of their condition, or their well meaning parents efforts to support their needs as they see them.

You Know When You’ve Been Oxtoned

5 Jun

I remember when John blogged about how much traffic he’d gone through since he got listed at StyleGala, CSSBeauty/Vault etc.

Well in like fashion, already my bandwidth report this month has prompted a flurry of panicked emails from me to my host – we’re only 5 days into this new month and I’ve already shifted nearly 2GB in traffic. Just to put that in perspective, I normally do around 1.5 – 1.8 GB per month!.

Just for your interest – here’s what that looks like on a graph.

Anyway, my hosts being exceptionally great chaps have promised me nothing nasty will happen to the site or my bank balance and in return I feel I should definitely let you know what a bloody good bunch of geezers Martin and Khalid at SiteHQ are.

This is a great month for me – John choosing June to be my turn ‘in the barrel’ so to speak has meant a lot more people than usual will get to hear about Autistic Pride Day and my hosts being all round good sorts means they’ll be able to carry on being exposed to it. A lot of people who’ve come across from John’s place have mailed me privately to say how much they’ve liked reading the autism related stuff as well as the design related stuff and that to me is brilliant. So, next time you hear about what a shitty world we live in, remember that people are also generous and kind.

Autistic Pride Day: Buffy The Vampire Slayer

4 Jun

Its vitally important when you’re the parent of an autistic child that you utilise methods of learning that are serious and learned.

Megan runs over to me holding up one of what I like to refer to as ‘interactive learning simulations’ and what the rest of the world likes to refer to as ‘XBox games’. This particular XBox game revolves around the empowerment of females and how difference is sometimes a good thing. Oh yeah, and vampires.

“Can you start the dishes?” Calls down my wife from upstairs where she cleaning the bathroom.

“Love to babe but Megan’s brought one of her interactive learning simulations over for me to play.”

“You mean she wants you to play on Buffy the Vampire Slayer.”

“Well, yeah.”

Silence. I take that as a good sign and plug Buffy in (please ignore the innuendo in that). She starts up like the dependable game, er I mean, learning environment, she is and off we go.

Megan only really likes me to interact with (OK, OK, ‘play with’) one bit of the game and thats the first 3 levels. For those of you familiar with Buffy she quips and wisecracks over the second seasons environment. For those of you unfamiliar with the Buffysphere Megan lets me complete the training level and the first 2 real levels and then I must restart.

By my own reckoning I’ve done these three levels approaching 700 times. It would not be egotistical to describe myself as the Yoda of the first three levels of this game. Thats right, not the Obi Wan, not the Skywalker but the frigging Yoda. As one of my son’s favourite TV wrestlers loves to opine – I’m. That. Damn. Good.

The gaming element went out of it months ago – what I do now is time myself. I’m embarrassingly pleased with myself if I beat my best time. Or I go through only taking the Health I started with, or only killing the vamps with my bare hands (tricky but not impossible).

Thing is, Meggy doesn’t care – she simply loves the endless repetition and sameness. She finds it a comfort and a stimulant. She doesn’t really stim whilst I play she simply sits and stares, fascinated – Daddy is the stim whilst he plays.

I pull off a particularly tricky reverse jump/punch and decapitate one of the irritating shambling skeletons and feel nauseatingly pleased with myself. You can guarantee that I’ll try and do that again, only better, next time I go through this bit.

Lots of Doctors and other professionals will tell parents that encouraging stimming (stimming is autistic behaviours that the autistic finds stimulating – usually hand flapping, rocking, singing, walking on tip toes, circling a room etc) is A Bad Thing (and yes, you can hear the caps in their voice when they say it) but I say – bollocks to that – she enjoys it and as far as I can see it does no harm. Lots of autistics say its a calming thing and help them ‘synchronise’ with the sensory input all around them. Sounds pretty good to me.

Uh-oh. I have to fight Spike. Particularly beloved by my wife on the show (Weird. He’s peroxide blond and emaciated. I’m dark haired and what can kindly be described as ‘big boned’.), Spike is Buffy’s arch-nemisis until Season 6 of the show when they become lovers. Spikes quite hard to beat – especially when you’re playing the game on ‘insanely difficult’ – and my aim in this section is to kick the crap out of him without him laying a hand (well, claw) on me. After a particularly sexy prolonged hanging bicycle kick he flees. Chicken.

This signals the end of Megan’s interest in the game. Where most kids might wander off and do something else, Megan simply makes me restart the game from the training level again. She’s the same with all her interactive devices – she likes to watch the BBC ident screen at the end of her Teletubby DVD’s again and again and sits with the DVD remote watching, rewinding, watching, rewinding, watching, rewinding until whatever governs these things is satisfied.

I prefer playing Buffy to watching the BBC ident appearing and fading hundred of times.

And so off Buffy and I go again, she runs towards the edge of a cliff, I press the red ‘A’ key and she jumps the Cliff and grabs the edge of the opposite cliff and runs off towards her final (to Megan) fight with the dead bloke my wife fancies called Spike in 9 mins 26 seconds or less.

Autistic Pride Day: Generalisations Don’t Help

3 Jun

I’ve been very critical on this blog of a book called Evidence of Harm and its author David Kirby. The book claims to offer ‘evidence of harm’ in that American children have been systematically poisoned over the last few decades and ‘made’ autistic.

Aside from the many factual errors in the book and aside from the poor science used to underpin it there are larger issues to do with making assumptions about autism and autistic people that this book doesn’t just use but actually swallows wholesale.

Throughout the book and on the websites that support it, parents are pictured as crusading hero’s and their children as ‘a parents worst nightmare’, ‘stolen’, ‘missing’, part of an ‘epidemic’ and likened to a plague. The book applies this picture to *all* autistics and makes no attempt to differentiate between those that may be mercury poisoned and those autistics who are born that way.

A fellow parent and friend, Kathleen Seidel, wrote an open letter to David Kirby that captured the feelings of those parents who don’t feel that their kids are ‘a parents worst nightmare’ or believe that our kids are poisoned. She addresses the increasing venom and hysteria vocalised by the growing Evidence of Harm readership towards us and asks David Kirby what he intends to do about it. I have linked to this letter recently but this Autistic Pride Day I think it needs repeating. You can find the letter in its original form on neurodiversity.com but with Kathleen’s permission I replicate it below.

— begins —

Dear Mr. Kirby,

I am the mother of two teenagers, one with a diagnosis of Asperger Syndrome. I am writing to you not to debate the mercury-autism causation hypothesis, but to express my concerns about the impact and implications of your efforts to promote your book, Evidence of Harm, and the efforts of members of the Evidence of Harm discussion list on Yahoo! — your ad hoc, grassroots publicity team.

While I appreciate your concerns about thimerosal and the concerns of parents who have legitimate reason to believe that their children have suffered from vaccine reactions, I would like to remind you that there are a great many parents who do not suspect vaccines as a cause of their children’s autistic spectrum condition. I am one of those parents, and I can hardly express to you how offended I am by the aggressive media campaign being pursued by those who seek to hold pharmaceutical companies liable for the fact that their children are autistic, by attempting to persuade the general public (which encompasses voters and potential jurors) that most autistic people are victims of mercury poisoning.

It is a legal and political strategy with several main elements:

§ Promoting popular perception and scientific re-definition of autism as a disease process, and undermining support for other areas of autism research: “Although we all know as parents and advocates that autism is an immune mediated disease, it is important to get that well established in mainstream science and medicine. Moving the paradigm away from chasing the illusive autism gene and silly psychological studies, i.e., scientific masturbation, is of paramount importance.”
(EOH message 1496)

§ Promoting popular perception and scientific re-definition of autism as a phenomenon that is primarily a consequence of thimerosal poisoning, in order to attract new litigants and political supporters: “…once causation is established in vax court or state/federal court, then we will be able to place overwhelming political pressure to amend vica to either extend the paultry 3-year statute of limitations or reopen briefly so that any mercury-injured kid can have access to the process.”
(EOH message 344)

§ Destroying the individual and collective credibility and reputation of scientists, public health professionals and health care practitioners who have supported vaccination initiatives : “Our main job is to destroy the credibility of the vaccine industry and that’s just what EOH has done.”
(EOH message 719)

§ Convincing the public that autism was practically nonexistent until the beginning of widespread vaccination in the mid-twentieth century, and that we are now in the midst of an “autism epidemic” : “…everyone does not even know that there is an autism epidemic and at a practical level, simply establishing that fact remains the most important work we can and must do.”
(EOH message 1761)

§ Denying the very possibility that there exist a significant number of adults whose early developmental pattern resembled that of children currently diagnosed with autistic spectrum conditions, for without that denial there can be no “epidemic.” This is a denial publicly pioneered by Mark Blaxill (http://bmj.bmjjournals.com/cgi/eletters/323/7313/633) that you have repackaged and reasserted in your recent essays in The Huffington Post and British Medical Journal (http://www.huffingtonpost.com, http://bmj.bmjjournals.com/cgi/eletters/330/7500/1154).

§ Using deliberately emotional appeals such as the “Recovered Kids” video to persuade the general public of the “truth” that autistics are poisoned: “the more visual and auditory we can make the message, the more people we can reach and the stronger impact we can have on them.”
(EOH message 2856)

It is a legal strategy undertaken with little regard for the fact that a significant proportion of families have no particular reason to suspect thimerosal poisoning as the cause of a family member’s autism. I have read many online newsgroup posts (including posts to the EOH list) written by parents of autistic children who do not describe witnessing any specific reaction at the time that shots were administered to their children, but who have become convinced of the vaccine hypothesis due to the publicity efforts of vaccine litigants. These parents are now consumed with guilt that their good-faith decision to vaccinate their children might have had damaging consequences, and rage at those individuals whom they presume misled them and inflicted damage upon their children, whether that guilt and rage are warranted or not.

It is also a legal strategy undertaken with little regard for the potential long-term, stigma-perpetuating impact upon those autistic people and their family members who are not inclined to believe that all autistics are poisoned. I have observed numerous instances in which vocal proponents of the autism=poisoning hypothesis have displayed outright contempt for anyone who might have come to their own conclusions about their and their family members’ lives, and I will cite many of these instances in this letter.

For example, here is a comment by Lujene Clark, responding to Kevin Leitch, a British father of an autistic child; she and other EOH list members descended en masse upon Mr. Leitch after a blog entry he had written was mentioned on the list (http://www.kevinleitch.co.uk/wp/?p=146, EOH message 1014):

“…if you remain in denial you don’t have to extend yourself or take responsibility to heal your child because it is so much easier to blame “bad genes” and accept your child’s fate. Or worse, try to get your child to accept his “genetic” fate. That is a COP-OUT. Your child deserves better. Get off your lazy bum and start to heal the biomedical problems of your child!!”

When Mr. Leitch stated that he recognized autistic traits in members of his extended family, Mrs. Clark replied,

“it seems apparent from reading your reply there is a history of serious psychiatric illness in your family. My apologies, I would not have attempted to engage in rational discussion had I known you were affected.”

Now, this is quite a toxic attitude to have towards disability, towards evidence of the genetic transmission of devalued characteristics, and towards parents who think for themselves. Do you share this attitude?

Here is another example:

“I believe that most of the parents who are in denial are that way because they have the same genetic predisposition and are toxic themselves and have “symptoms” which is why they believe it is genetic… they see it in themselves. Also, from what I have personally seen, people who are mercury poisoned are defensive and appear in denial in general.” (EOH message 1337)

Is this an analysis with which you concur?

Not all autistic citizens and their families feel that we need “heroes” who loudly shout that the presence of autism in a family is tantamount to poisoning, and that it renders all that family’s members incapable of rational discourse. Not all of us respond positively to “heroes” like Dr. Rashid Buttar, who invokes the image of an autistic person “flipping burgers” in his sales pitch for DMPS cream, a chelating agent promoted as a cure for autism:

“Our success has been all under the age of nine, nine or under. Now since then, when I presented to Congress I told them that I didn’t think this would be effective for older children because the older children would use it, I didn’t see — they got better, they started talking, but they’re not in my book considered normal. They can read, but they’ll never do much more than flip hamburgers for a living, that type of thing. They won’t reach their full potential. But now I’m finding that actually we have a couple of kids, I have three kids that are over the age of eleven, and they’re all having rapid response — actually they’re all children of doctors — and they’re all seeing very good results.”
(presentation mentioned at EOH message 1003; see the entire presentation at http://www.autismmedia.org/buttar5aq.html)

Such appeals to parental fear and status consciousness – pitting the image of the burger-flipping “abnormal” against the image of the doctors’ children who are making speedy progress to “normality” – demean both distinguishably autistic individuals, and individuals who earn an honest livelihood in low-status jobs. This kind of thinking can only serve to perpetuate stigma. Unfortunately, it is an attitude that pervades the daily discussions on the mailing list established to coordinate independent publicity efforts for your book. These publicity efforts include the upcoming “Evidence of Harm Day” aimed at boosting the book’s sales ranking, by encouraging parents to purchase multiple copies (EOH message 2600).

Indeed, the Evidence of Harm discussion list has evolved into a staging ground for ideological assaults, ad hominem attacks and mob actions against parents who express their doubts publicly about the autism-thimerosal hypothesis. Witness the flurry of outraged comments on Mr. Leitch’s blog, and the May 18 collective descent on the Parents Magazine online forum, where a parent, “dangermama,” had posted a forthright, informed response to another parent’s inquiry about vaccinations (http://www.parents.com/community/boards/ thread.jspa?forumID=78&threadID=277579). That campaign all started with a plea to members of the EOH list: “Dear Gang… If anyone is up to giving this person a online beating please chime in” (EOH message 2547). One EOH list member signed on to Parents as “myboycody,” then made over 70 posts to that board over the following 48 hours (EOH message 2556); another returned to the EOH list, admitting, “I love telling people off its great stress relief” (EOH message 2563).

Is this the kind of publicity campaign you envisioned, the kind of moral support you welcome?

Autism and autistics have been described on the EOH list as:

“government mercury vaccine poisoned kids” (EOH message 97)
“Parent’s Worst Nightmare Syndrome PWNS or Living He**” (EOH message 418)
“an equal opportunity disaster” (EOH message 543)
“walking bio-hazards” (EOH message 1469)

Parents who do not agree with your associates have been variously disparaged on the EOH list as:

“in denial” (EOH message 2234)
“clueless” (EOH message 1024)
“embittered and not entirely rational” (EOH message 153)
negligent (EOH message 2197)
“flat-earth(ers)” (EOH message 2172)
“parents (who) have not yet learned the facts” (EOH message 1771)
“brainwashed” (EOH message 2157)
“blinded by hate” (EOH message 2574)
“just taking the ‘safe,’ mainstream road of thought for not knowing better” (EOH message 2155)
“desperate” (EOH message 2195)
inherently lacking in credibility (EOH message 1331)
“old school” (EOH message 3009, EOH message 3023)
“an ugly, feisty fiend” (EOH message 3179)
“unenlightened” (EOH message 3183)

Researchers and practitioners in the areas of cognitive psychology, neuropsychology, genetics, medicine, public health, and education, have been described on the EOH list as:

“lazy” (EOH message 2133)
“vaccine barbarians” (EOH message 190)
“cheap whores” (EOH message 1888)
motivated only by a paycheck (EOH message 222)
“high-minded Fascist germ freaks” (EOH message 1345)
conducting “silly psychological studies” (EOH message 1496)
researching “‘pie in the sky’ stuff unlikely to yield actionable results” (EOH message 2008)
disseminating “malicious public relations hyperbole” (EOH message 1502)
possessed of “retrograde views” (a specific slur against Harvard researcher Dr. Margaret Bauman) (EOH message 1504)
spiritually inferior (EOH message 155)
“pharmaceutical and medical killers” (EOH message 2705)

Autism organizations such as the National Alliance for Autism Research, Cure Autism Now, and the Autism Society of America, have been characterized on the EOH list as:

“establishment” (EOH message 883)
“secular herdsmen” (EOH message 1894)
“carpet-bagging rackets” (EOH message 1975)
“co-opted” (EOH message 1667)
“autism mafia” (EOH message 1502)
“not representing our children’s interests” (EOH message 2008)
possessed of conflicts of interest (EOH message 1453)

Indeed, all those who might fall into the category of “the book’s antagonists” have been called:

“those motherfuckers” (EOH message 69)

Do you concur with these vilifications against parents, researchers and service providers who disagree with the thimerosal litigants’ hypotheses, and/or whose work is focused on different areas than mercury? Not once have I read a post where you suggest that it might be appropriate to avoid insulting parents of autistic children in connection with publicity efforts for your book. When two different list members ridiculed Dr. Melinda Wharton of the CDC with comments about the Public Health Service uniform she wore during a Congressional hearing (EOH message 2393, EOH message 1295), not once did you or any other EOH list member suggest that it might be inappropriate to stoop to childish, sexist jeering in connection with publicity efforts for your book. When an EOH list member made the statement, “Lenny… if it’s genetics, how did such sharp witted parents have such dull witted offspring?” (EOH message 996), not once did you or any other EOH list member make note of the fact that referring to autistics as “dull witted” is crude and demeaning, or at the very least make it clear that this is not the sort of characterization of autistic people that you would want associated with publicity efforts for your book. When an EOH list member revealed her plan to distribute flyers advertising Evidence of Harm at a recent lecture by Temple Grandin on Long Island, not once did you suggest to her how inappropriate it would be for her to promote your book at an event featuring another author represented by another publisher, without first obtaining permission from the event’s sponsors (EOH message 3009).

You have made many public assertions that you have adopted a neutral stance on the thimerosal issue. However, consideration of the discussion on the EOH list leads me to conclude that the “neutrality” is only for public display and that many of the autism=mercury proponents regard you as their mouthpiece. In response to an EOH list member’s complaint, “Whose side is he on? He needs to stop misleading the public that vaccines are now virtually mercury free” (EOH message 1582), another stated, “Well from what little I know he is on ‘our’ side” (EOH message 1668). Another list member wrote, “Kirby may have written it, but EOH is OUR book” (EOH message 2923). Although you might take issue with these statements, they reveal the impression that you have succeeded in conveying to at least two active members of your support network. This is an impression reinforced by your reference to Atlanta, home of the CDC, as “the belly of the beast” (EOH message 279).

If you were truly objective, why is it that Lyn Redwood, co-founder of Safe Minds, was identified as the contact person for http://www.evidenceofharm.com until just recently? (The WHOIS record changed after I made note of the domain’s contact information on a post to the Health Fraud mailing list, also frequented by a number of your EOH list-mates; although you are now named as contact person, the address remains that of another “mercury mom” who maintains the site.) If you were truly objective, why would you begin the discussion on the EOH list with, “Let’s hope the ‘other side’ chimes in,” rather than, “Let’s hope both sides chime in” (EOH message 26)? If you were truly objective, why would there be so little evidence in your public pronouncements that you ever sought to acquaint yourself with adults with autistic spectrum diagnoses, rather than blithely parroting Mark Blaxill’s “hidden horde hypothesis.” Why would there be so little evidence in your public pronouncements that you have sought to acquaint yourself with parents who have chosen not to pursue biomedical interventions with their offspring, or parents who recognize that autism was indeed “born in their house,” and not inflicted upon the family by a villainous conspiracy? Lenny Schafer has exhorted EOH list members to “keep the focus on the good guys and the bad guys” (EOH message 391). According to this world-view, the “bad guys” are not only the supposed Goliaths of government and the pharmaceutical industry, but also many thousands of autistic people who do not identify themselves as victims of poisoning, and thousands of loving, conscientious parents — parents whose life experience does not include “evidence of harm” by vaccines, who have a different perspective on their lives and on the diagnosis that they or their family members happen to share with others, and whose private medical choices have not included elaborate, expensive, experimental detoxification and nutritional supplementation regimens.

Your many years of work for The Advocate suggests that you are alert to issues affecting the gay community. May I therefore suggest a thought experiment. For one week, every time you read an instance of the word “autism” or “autistic,” replace it with “homosexual,” “gay” or “queer.” I have already done this for you on the bumper sticker that appears below; it is modified from the one that Lenny Schafer recently developed and distributed to participants on the Evidence of Harm mailing list — “My child was poisoned by mercury in vaccines, but everyone calls it Autism,” juxtaposed with an image of a skull and crossbones. I provide this image not because I believe the message it appears to convey, but in order to encourage you to consider how it feels for an autistic person to hear incessant, gruesome, emotionally charged descriptions of autism by non-autistic individuals who regard autism as an unmitigated tragedy, as completely unacceptable, descriptions that insist that an autistic person’s experience of the world is a consequence of poisoning, and whose cognitive and behavioral peculiarities are worthy of utter eradication. Although this may seem far-fetched, like comparing apples to oranges, in fact, homosexuality and autism both constitute forms of social deviance in its strictest definition — that is, deviation from the behavioral patterns of the majority. Homosexuality used to be defined as a “psychiatric disorder” — in fact, Ivar Lovaas, the early developer of behavioral interventions designed to suppress the expression of all autistic behavior, was also a pioneer in the development of reparative therapy, designed to suppress the expression of all homosexual behavior.

I hope that you will consider that when you make public statements about autism, you are presuming to speak about an entire class of people who are autistic for life, not simply the subset of parents and minor children with whom you have become acquainted over the past couple of years. For every parent eager to “recover” their child and “lose the diagnosis,” there are autistic citizens who will always have the diagnosis and will always wear the label, and who are affected by the manner in which that label is bandied about by those who hate what it represents to them. People too often talk about “autism” as if it is something separate from autistic people. It is not. And those autistic people and their families — autistic children, the autistic-spectrum adults whose very existence you have publicly questioned, and families like mine — will still be around, still dealing with the stigma of “contamination” that you have helped to promulgate, long after the royalties dry up and you have sailed off to your next journalistic destination.

Sincerely,

Kathleen Seidel

29 May 2005

–ends–

Make Me Normal

2 Jun

I’ve just finished watching the Channel 4 documentary ‘Make me Normal’ which revolved around a few teenage students with autism.

I was left with mixed feelings. There was so much I recognised in those kids, particularly Roxanne and for me there was a lot of laugh out loud moments (Roxanne’s interview with her friend towards the end was very amusing). It was also impossible not to be moved by these kids emotional detachment. For an NT anyway.

However, I was growing increasingly frustrated by the attitude of the headteacher. At no point did I question her commitment but her overall attitude seemed to me to be one of teaching the kids how bad autism was and how it was holding them back. At some point in the documentary, all of the kids expressed a desire to not be autistic. A couple expressed the desire to kill themselves. I can’t help but feel that a headteacher who would teach these kids that their autism (who they are after all) is OK. That the NT world has rules and that if they wish to progress in that world they need to learn them but that being autistic is both natural and who they are. Trying to teach them to circumnavigate their autism seems both futile and morally dishonest.

I have to come clean and say its very difficult for me to be objective. I don’t want Megan to be an object of pity. I don’t want Megan to feel she has no worth unless she conforms to an NT viewpoint but I know that if she genuinely desired to be in that world then I would be failing in my duty as a parent to not support that.

I think I’m going to be mulling this programme over for awhile. If you saw it, what did you think? Don’t be PC, be honest.

On Having An Entry Rejected By A CSS Gallery

2 Jun

OK. I’m going to have to word this post very carefully. I want to get it upfront that this entry is in no way just a great big sulk about not getting listed on StyleGala or CSS Beauty/Vault or Unmatched Style. Seriously, its not. Stop sniggering.

There has to be a line of quality that differentiates what gets listed and what doesn’t. Thats as it should be – not every design can make it in. But lets get the awkward question out the way – do I think this design should be listed? The honest answer is that I’m ambivalent. It would be nice, but I’m not going to lose any sleep over it if I don’t. So whats the point of this post?

I know that at least one of these sites has come calling just by checking my referrer stats. I further can see that I haven’t been listed (thats not to say I won’t be of course, I really don’t know if anyone’s even submitted the design or not, let alone had the other gallery sites come calling to have a look). So OK – as I said above, its nice to be listed but at the end of the day if I’m not then I’m not. I’m not gagging for a listing – my self confidence has grown enough since I stopped doing just Flash work that I’m not too worried what others think. But what would be great would be some kind of indication as to the factors that led me not to be listed.

Imagine how useful that would be? All designers are interested in pushing themselves and growing past their current boundaries right? What better way than to get some kind of feedback from the people who made the call as to their opinions as to why it didn’t make the cut? It wouldn’t necessarily have to be massively in-depth, just a sort of tickbox affair stating what the main issue(s) was/were and an indication of what needed to be worked on. A paragraph of text at most. StyleGala does this for successful designs – wouldn’t that effort be better placed offering constructive critiques to those that didn’t make it in?

Now I know the guys running these galleries are busy people but wouldn’t that be a great thing for them to do? I know I would really appreciate constructive criticism on a design from some of the best in the business.

Autistic Pride Day

2 Jun

This month, on the 18th is something called Autistic Pride Day. It probably won’t make the news, you almost certainly won’t see a large march and you won’t have to put up with hearing z-list celebs talk about their solidarity and respect for the celebrants.

Autistic Pride Day is a day that adult autistics chose to commemorate the fact of their autism and the fact that they were proud to be autistic. It should not be confused with Autism Awareness which is a campaign set up and managed mostly by parents and carers of autistics to highlight what they see as the tragic blight of autism.

Autistics today face an incredible amount of generalisation and pejoratives. I’ve heard other parents of autistics describe their own children as – ‘disappearing down a black hole’, ‘stolen’, ‘missing’, ‘a parents worst nightmare’ and their own family situations described in terms reflecting grief and tragedy.

Once upon a time, homosexuality was considered an illness. In fact it wasn’t until 1973 that the American Psychiatric Association (APA) removed homosexuality from its official listing of mental illnesses in its Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Psychiatric Disorders.

1973. Just over 30 years ago. It seems incredible that people really did think that a persons sexual preference was symptomatic of an illness, but they did. Up until that point, gay Americans were subjected to pejoratives and mind-sets very similar to those that autistics face now. The ‘deviance from normality’ was too much for most families so a lot of gays stayed quiet or grew estranged from their families. Autistic people don’t even have the option of staying quiet. Their ‘deviance from the norm’ leads them to ‘stim’ (flap hands, rock, sing to themselves and a massive variety of other ‘deviant’ behaviours). Its obvious to everyone when an autistic is autistic.

The Black man, it was repeatedly claimed, was uniquely fitted for bondage by his primitive psychological organization. For him, mental health was contentment with his subservient lot, while protest was an infallible symptom of derangement. Thus a well-known physician of the ante-bellum South, Dr. Samuel Cartwright of Louisiana, had a psychiatric explanation for runaway slaves. He diagnosed their malady as drapetomania, literally the flight-from-home-madness, ‘as much a disease of the mind as any other species of mental alienation.’ Another ailment peculiar to Black people was dysaethesia Aethiopica, sometimes called rascality by overseers, but actually due to ‘ insensibility of nerves’ and ‘hebetude of mind’, explained Dr. Cartwright. Whereas psychologically normal Negroes were faithful and happy –go-lucky, the mentally afflicted ones ‘pay no attention to the rights of property…slight their work…raise disturbances with their overseers.

Scientific racism.

The shocking quote above, demonstrates how people one believed that black people were considered ill. How a Doctor could believe that a person desiring freedom could be construed as an illness is bizarre. But it happened.

Benjamin Rush, MD (1746 – ­1813), signer of the Declaration of Independence, Dean of the Medical School at the University of Pennsylvania and the “Father of American Psychiatry, “described Negroes as suffering from an affliction called Negritude, which was thought to be a mild form of leprosy. The only cure for the disorder was to become white.

Vanessa Jackson.

If such a hypothesis was even suggested today, the author would be quite rightly hounded out of the medical profession. Its utterly ridiculous. But it happened.

Autistics today face similar situations, similar ill-informed judgments and similar results. A lot of autistics say that growing up they felt forced to try and bury their autism as much as possible to avoid the judgment of family and peers. Would we find a gay teen having to do this acceptable today? Whats the consensus of opinion on Micheal Jacksons continuing quest to make himself white?

In the days leading up to Autistic Pride day, I’m going to try and write something every day about why I feel this is such an important event for Megan and for our whole family. I’m also going to try and link to articles that offer some insight into what its like to be on the receiving end of prejudice. The first article is written by Amanda Baggs and describes how the mainstream autism advocacy movement (by which I mean medics and parents mostly) are participating in the belittling of autistics.

As to what we’ll be doing on Autistic Pride Day, we’re not sure. My wife’s due to give birth to our new baby sometime this month so it may be on or around this very day. But if it isn’t, then we’ll be passing it quietly with Megan. Doing things that she likes to do. We’ll also be thinking of all the autistic adults and children we know and wishing them well and hoping that equality for them comes sooner than it did for gay people or black people.

Star Wars III: Superfluous Opinion

1 Jun

It says something about me that I don’t want to think about too much that straight after watching Episode III I wanted to blog my reactions. Does this make me sad for being a web geek or Star Wars geek? Actually, don’t answer that.

The film can be sectioned in three. Section One: Mostly OK. Section Two: So bad it made me want to stab my eyes out. Section Three: Mostly good.

Section one was full of typical Lucas over-reliance on SFX. One scene featured General Grievous’ ship approaching a planet, then landing on the planet, then GG himself leaving the ship and walking off whereupon we switch to another scene. What the hell was the point of this scene?. Some of the effects were really good – the top-down view of the space battle looking toward the planet surface was great – but George, please – use ’em sparingly!

Section two. Oh dear. Has no one told Haydn that he can’t act? This section concentrates on building up the relationship between Anakin and Padme and it…is…dreadful. The writing is just appalling:

ANAKIN: You are so beautiful!

PADME: It’s only because I’m so in love . . .

ANAKIN: No, it’s because I’m so in love with you.

PADME: So love has blinded you?

ANAKIN: Well, that’s not exactly what I meant . . .

PADME: But it’s probably true!

They laugh.

What??? What does that even mean?

Section three is an improvement. This really starts when Sidius kills all the Jedi (from invincible to inept in 5 seconds – so much for the Force). Haydn still can’t act but at least he can glower convincingly. The ending fight between Anakin and Kenobi is really good and some (gasp!) decent acting from Ewan McGregor allows us to feel Kenobi’s pain at maiming his apprentice. Not before some more terrible dialogue though. At the end of the fight Kenobi jumps into firm ground – Anakin moves to come after him:

OBI-WAN: It’s over, Anakin. I have the high ground.

Hmm. If only ever General in the history of warfare had realised that merely being slightly higher than your opponent meant you’d automatically win any fight. Bet they feel silly now.

The creation of Darth Vader was excellent but they should’ve left it when he started doing the patented Darth heavy breathing, as subsequent scenes saw Vader perfecting his Al Jolson routine (Stiff legs, hand waggling) in a vastly amusing manner. Not what you want to see from the Lord of Darkness.

Still a good film just don’t go expecting Shakespeare.

Mercury And Gender

31 May

Autism is mercury poisoning. So says Generation Rescue and a chatroom full of convinced parents. I feel I’ve shown conclusively the fallacy in that position.

Much more ambiguous is the belief that mercury could trigger autism. There does seem to be evidence that increased rates of environmental agents might have led some children to become ill. What is still up in the air for me personally is – is this illness really autism? How many of these children are there? What were the exact circumstances of their onset? Unfortunately, due to the paucity of data on these issues its impossible, or next to impossible, to answer any of them with any degree of accuracy. Not that that seems to have stopped a sizable proportion of hysterics leaping to conclusions. And not that that seems to have stopped the burgeoning autism money-making-machine in the guise of Generation Rescue and David Kirby cashing in on this state of ignorance. Those of us who question are set upon and misrepresented and in the meantime we have to put up with hearing other parents of autistics and various hacks and quacks describe our kids as sub-normal, dead inside, in a black hole, disappeared, missing, part of a plague, part of an epidemic, a parents worst nightmare, a living hell, a disaster and various other niceties. I wonder what members of other minority groups would be happy hearing themselves described in such a way?

Anyway, climbing off my soapbox, it struck me that if mercury (and particularly mercury in vaccines) was such a high causer of autism then where are all the girls?

The gender segregation of autism shows boys are 4 times as likely to be autistic as girls. There are no clear evidential paths that can account for this yet and bearing this in mind, it seems puzzling that mercury could be used as a scapegoat for all incidences of autism as claimed by Generation Rescue and its proponents. Or could it? Does mercury affect boys more than girls?

It’s difficult to find a lot of data on this but everything I’ve found so far indicates the gender plays no role in mercury poisoning. For example, an eMedicine study into the Minamata Bay incident (a factory discharged inorganic mercury into the water), researchers concluded:

Sex: No gender predisposition has been identified clearly.

David A Olson, MD, Consulting Staff, Department of Neurology, Dekalb Medical Center.

And from a separate article in the HSE:

n the U.S.: The 1998 annual report of the American Association of Poison Control Centers’ toxic exposure surveillance system noted 4,039 exposures to mercury. Of these, 1,039 were in children younger than 6 years, and 1,385 were older than 19 years. Overall, 68 patients were reported to have moderate effects, 12 patients had major effects, and 3 patients died as a result of mercury exposure. There is no scientific evidence that demonstrates any difference in outcome following exposure to mercury that is attributable to gender.

Barry Diner, MD, Barry Brenner, MD, PhD.

That’s all I can find. There may be more but if there is I couldn’t find it. Seems pretty clear cut though – there’s no gender favouring from mercury. And bearing that in mind, how do we account for all the autistic boys? Where are all the girls?

Who’s Site Is It Anyway?

31 May

There’s been an uptake in 3rd party apps interacting with websites in ways previously unthought of this year. Two of the biggest known are the Google Content Rewriter and now, Greasemonkey.

What both these things do is alter aspects of a website. The onus in each of these caes is slightly different. Google does it mostly, it seems, for Google whilst Greasemonkey does it for users. The end result is the same however – sites are altered.

This for me throws up lots of interesting questions about sites and the various aspects that can be ‘owned’ and who the various people are that ‘own’ these aspects.

At its most basic level a web page is comprised of three things: markup, design elements and content. Greasemonkey and Google can alter all three of these things. The question then is: should they be allowed to do so? Who ‘owns’ the site?

I take the view that all aspects of my site are owned by me but that by explicitly allowing others to access the content and the design then they have at least a part ownership in that aspect of the page(s). Once its downloaded to their browser then they should be able to alter is as they see fit to suit their needs. In this respect I have less of an issue with Greasemonkey than I do with Google. Greasemonkey is to help users. Google’s little tool is to help Google – they can make money from my content.

You’ve probably noted that in the above paragraph that I didn’t include markup in my list of what I personally find acceptable to alter. This is because I don’t find it acceptable for anything other than me to alter the code used on my site. Changing my code can have implications for how the site does/doesn’t work on the most basic of levels. For example, I use semantic code as I think its important. I use various bits of Javascript to do various things (the comments form spell checker for example) and whilst I can appreciate that users might want to have more control I don’t think that altering my code is acceptable.

At some point there has to be an element of trust. I don’t serve ads, I don’t track anyone with cookies or sessions (except in as much as I do for the comment form details). I don’t use hidden frames and I don’t think users have the right to alter the most basic building block of how I choose to serve content.

I serve content in two formats – markup and RSS. Those, to me, are your options as a user. I think a mutually respectful relationship where I trust you not to make unwanted changes to the functionality of my site and you trust me not to flood you with spam or other ads is important.

Dean Edwards recently wrote a script to disale Greasemonkey.

…GreaseMonkey broke my site. I didn’t realise what the problem was at first. I use a JavaScript syntax highlighter to make code on this site look slightly less boring. It uses some regular expressions and a little bit of DOM scripting. After installing GreaseMonkey I noticed that some of my code samples were completely broken in Firefox.

I entirely agree with Dean here. OK, he’s talking about design elements which I don’t have such an issue with but the fact remains that this Greasemonkey script is interfering in coded elements of the page Dean published. That to me is not acceptable. I find it as annoying as I do Google’s attempt to rewite my content – even if it is much more benign in intent.

There are also a few scripts here that apparently totally disable Greasemonkey. I don’t think anyone really wants that but I can sympathise with site owners wanting their sites to be presented as they intended them.

As a point of note, I installed the script to disable Google rewriting my content straight away. I’m still wavering as to whether or not to install a Greasemonkey killer. I’d be very interested in others opinions on this.